my stomach hurts from binging.

i drift between hyper-awareness and totally zone-out-ness.

bloody miserable are the words of the day.

borough market did bring spirits up abit. especially with the super good parma, cakes and scallops. yum.

mahjong was a loss of money, but i must say li guang & kai's place is nice nice (((:

time for pictures!

suck finger!!! whahaha.

mervyn & li guang dancing

flaming sambucca. pui.

love triangle. smirks. i heart this photo (((:

theatre-magic-maker!

this was on the top of the stage at conway hall. i agree wholeheartedly.

our set. way way cool.

cuiyin SM!

mary & ellen

tiu lan face -.-

jc, ellen & lesley. complicated shit.

my darling lover (:

chongs darling (:

lilin, henry, julie, kareen & reuben (:

lse singsoc yr1

ayla & charlotte (:

jenn darling

happiness!

tiankai.

peter ((:

jc, sam at age 7 & ellen

candid shot!

pretty flowers from kaylene

flowers from chor ming (:

interesting revelations tonight made my heart hurt so much i thought it was going to burst. so many fucking thoughts keep swirling around my head. i need to put an end to this mess. i really need to. like i said. mind's willing & strong, heart's weak and unwilling.

rationality. that was one thing i always lacked.

I wish you bluebirds in the spring

To give your heart a song to sing

And then a kiss, but more than this

I wish you love

And in July a lemonade

To cool you in some leafy glade

I wish you healthBut more than wealth

I wish you love

My breaking heart and I agree

That you and I could never be

So with my best

My very best

I set you free

I wish you shelter from the storm

A cozy fire to keep you warm

But most of all when snowflakes fall

I wish you love

sometimes i feel so small and insignificant. so value-less and invisible.

i'm not asking for attention. i'm just asking for appreciation.